Healing the Past with Sexual Role Play

My therapist and I talk about a lot of things, which happens to be the exact reason I go to therapy. 🙂 I’ve been with him for over 10yrs and he’s been a huge impact on my mental health and my marriage. He is well aware of the fetishes hubby and I are into (ok maybe not ALL of them) and it’s fun to analyze with him what part of us is healing when we do these things. I’m sure you can imagine how interesting our sessions can get.

Yes, I’m one of those people that thinks some (not all) of our fetishes touch on some experience from our childhood. Those might be good experiences or traumatic ones, either way sometimes the sexual things we participate in are addressing some emotions from our past. I was going to get all psychological and explain how role play and acting out certain scenarios works to help you heal from the past but, it was really just too much for one post. I encourage you to look it up if that interests you at all. I really do just love that stuff and maybe one day I’ll be come a kinky therapist like my doc keeps telling me I should. 🙂

Obviously, we all know I’m a control freak, I have some strong OCD tendencies and other fun psychological stuff I get to deal with. I know from lots of work that my out of control, unstable childhood has a lot to do with my need to control every situation I’m in and person I’m with. No, I’m not a crazy person out there trying to control every situation because I am a logical person and I have learned that I am in control of MY things. 🙂 Which is also why I enjoy having things to control.

In exploring our sexual desires and learning about these different kinks and fetishes, I’m finding I like some pretty intense things. I know I’ve written before, in a comment, about how I feel like choking hubby touches on that one specific time I choked my brother. I felt so powerful in that moment when I was able to get him pinned, it felt so incredible at a time when I was very powerless. Being able to recreate that with hubby by choking him (we’ve actually done some more play like this but don’t write about every single time), we’ve realized is huge for me emotionally and well, it’s turns me the fuck on like crazy!

Yesterday morning I had another crazy realization when I went in to visit hubby, saw his gorgeous perfect little ass, climbed up and rubbed my pussy on it until I came, twice. The reason I realized this was addressing something from childhood was because in the middle of it I muttered out, in loud a whisper, something about how I wished I’d have had him when I was a kid. I told him his ass was the perfect little hump toy. How it fit perfectly for me to rub on and use him to please myself. When I was younger and started exploring this whole masturbation thing I would use a folded pillow or whatever to rub on or hump or however you want to put it. I can remember feeling like I was the one in charge, making myself feel that way. I was the one in charge of giving myself that pleasure. Nothing ever worked just right and I was constantly adjusting and readjusting. However, cagedmonkey’s little ass really does just fit perfectly in my pelvis. I soaked his butt with my extra wet pussy from cumming twice. I made sure to move up his body rubbing my wetness from his butt, up his back, to his neck.

I had so many emotions flood me right at that moment. I love that I’m so comfortable with my husband and our sexual relationship that I can admit these types of things to him. I’m sure he only thinks I’m slightly weird haha. It did spark a fantastic Dom/sub role play conversation and we both are looking forward to exploring more of these types of childhood things.

Prest-o Tease-o with my Magic Wand

Last night was wonderful. Cagedmonkey was great about serving me and eating my pussy over and over until I was so sensitive I had to make him stop. I was writhing around clenching his head between my thighs. I was practically wrestling him around on the couch with all my strength, but he was relentless. I tried so very hard not to stop him by using my safeword but it was too much, my clit was extremely oversensitive.

I will point out that I held off on my safeword until real pain set in. I loved that he wouldn’t stop and wanted to make me cum over and over as much as he possibly could. There just comes a point where a woman’s clit seriously starts to hurt and I mean pain… not the good pain either.

I still loved every second of being pleased and gushing my pussy juices out. I loved him cleaning up all my juices and sucking my freshly shaved pussy lips clean.

As I do every night, I sent cagedmonkey off to work with my juices all over his face, smelling me and tasting me. After he left I watched a little tv but I couldn’t stop thinking about what had happened earlier and was getting myself turned on. I even got the chance to tell a dear subby friend all about how he ate my pussy which turned me on SO much more. I couldn’t help it, I just HAD to masturbate.

I took myself upstairs, grabbed my wand and “Adam” and decided to give myself one massive orgasm. Would it be fair NOT to tease my boy by sharing the orgasm with him? Heck no that’s not fair so I decided I would take pics of everything I was doing and text them to cagedmonkey to drive him absolutely bonkers. It turns him on SO much knowing that I take full advantage of my ability to have an orgasm any time I want!
image I started out with the wand on a nice gentle low speed. A comfortable make-me-feel-oh-so-good speed. That really got my juices flowing and I was soaking wet before I even came! I just kept getting hornier by letting the wand vibrate me this way. So much hornier that I just had to feel a big cock in me. Since mine isn’t available I needed the next best thing. I got “Adam” and got him all ready to fully fill up my pussy.
image I used Adam at a nice medium pace, careful not to slam it into me to hurt me. I basically made love to myself sweetly with my awesome realistic dildo. I wanted to make sure that this big orgasm I was about to have would be enjoyed by hubby when he got home. So I decided to have it on his pillow so my juices would be waiting there for him to sleep in. So here is a picture of what I left for him.
image I do think texting him and showing him all of this while it was happening was quite an effective tease. But perhaps he’ll want to tell you all about that.

Domme Directed Dominance

Last night was amazing! I don’t think I’ve posted lately describing playtime so for those looking to get off, here you go, here’s a little word porn for ya haha 🙂

The evening started out lovely as cagedmonkey sent me out by myself to get my fingers and toes done at the nail salon. He took care of getting the kids showered and into bed while I got myself some wonderful, pampering, me time. What an amazing hubby man! I now have pretty purple fingernails and bright blue toenails. Hubby’s favorite color is purple so I picked it out just for him.


Once I got home we took care of the business side of things and I unlocked him, shaved him and we took a shower together. After we showered we had a couple drinks, watched some How I Met Your Mother on Netflix and things got frisky! I guess it doesn’t take long to go from watching tv to face-in-the-pussy when I’m sitting across from cagedmonkey on the couch, legs spread, mindlessly petting my pussy lips. He got very worked up and asked if he could please taste me. As if I’d say no to a little face time. 🙂

I let him get his little taste and back to his side of the couch he went. As we sat there talking and I was sipping my wine, I started rubbing my wet pussy lips. Since I never finger myself (only one other time), I told hubby I wondered what I felt like inside and gently slid my middle finger just inside my pussy. It felt so warm and soft and spongy. I could actually feel my g spot and started rubbing it. I told cagedmonkey I wondered what it would feel like in there if I came on my own fingers. He sat there eyes wide, watching as I slid my finger back and forth inside me. I rubbed my clit with my other hand and brought myself to orgasm. It felt so neat as my pussy squeezed and throbbed around my fingers.

After I came on my fingers I told cagedmonkey I wondered what I taste like. I asked him if I tasted good, should I taste myself? He looked at me with big eyes and said, “WHAT?!?!” I smiled my wicked little smirk and slowly put my cum covered fingers to my lips. He just gasped, “oh my God!” as I licked and sucked my fingers clean. It was driving him absolutely mad that I was doing the one thing he loves to do above all else, I was tasting my own pussy juices. I told him he should be stroking his cock and then I reached down with my whole hand and scooped up more of my gooey yummy cum. It was spreading between my fingers. I held it up and showed hubby and slowly brought it to my tongue. I looked hubby right in the eye as he was stroking and, again, licked and sucked each of my fingers clean.

Cagedmonkey sat there extremely turned on, edging himself as I teased him and I got up, walked over in front of him and sat my wet horny pussy right down on his cock. Just as quickly as I slid his cock in my pussy, I slid it out and knelt down to suck myself off of his slicked up cock. I think hubby may have stopped breathing as I did that. I was completely doing things out of my norm and he was astonished. I coated his cock a few more times like that and kept kneeling in front of him sucking his cock as if I were starving for it.

That’s when I told hubby that I would love to cum on his cock and have him shove his cock in my mouth and make me clean it off. He got up, laid me on the couch and before sticking his cock in me he brought me to a fantastic orgasm with his mouth. I guess he really wanted a taste too! With my pussy full of my fresh cum he slid his cock inside deep and thrust a few times to get it covered good with my juices. He pulled out his sopping wet cum covered cock, moved up to my face, grabbed the back of my head, tilted it slightly and shoved his cock deep, past my lips. I could feel his balls hit my chin as the tip of his cock opened my throat. He again thrust into my pussy while I rubbed my clit and came all over his cock and then forced his cock into my mouth. He did this repeatedly making me cum and then suck him clean. My eyes watered and I gagged on his big thick rock hard cock. I tasted different on his cock than my fingers.

When I’d had enough, I told him to stop but my body was not ready to stop having orgasms. I was so incredibly turned on by the whole situation I just HAD to cum… not once, not twice but three more times. I laid there breathing heavy on the couch, loving every bit of what just happened. Loving that I made him dominate me and directed him how to do it. It was just all so incredibly hot!

Hubby is home from work again tonight… I wonder if we’ll get up to some naked naughty fun stuff again.

I Have a Superpower? Spontaneous Orgasm Girl!

Ok so I don’t think being able to orgasm spontaneously is a superpower but cagedmonkey seems to think so! Haha He just really finds it fascinating that I have so many different ways that I can orgasm. Most involve touching but some require none at all and still others happen whether I want them to or not. Don’t you worry, of course I’m going to explain what I mean! 🙂

So, of course, like most women I can orgasm with clitoral stimulation. It really is a wonderful thing to feel that warm soft tongue slide between your pussy lips to find and connect with your clit. That amazing feeling when it is rubbed, licked, kissed and gently sucked. Just send shivers up my spine and makes my pussy quiver thinking about it.

There’s also the g-spot orgasm when a guy hits, rubs and tickles that wondrous spongy spot just inside the vagina. I just love when hubby switches from fingering me deep to rubbing my g-spot just at the perfect time. He seems to know exactly when I’m at the very beginning of my orgasm. It’s just crazy how my body reacts to his different touches. 🙂

I am a girl who has multiple orgasms and it seems like once cagedmonkey gets me going I almost can’t stop. Sometimes my pussy just needs to orgasm and that feeling, those tickles, tingle and quivers stick around even after he’s made me cum a few times. I’ll just be sitting there after a few good orgasms and my body just starts to spasm and twitch. I get that feeling between my legs (I’m getting wet writing this right now, thinking about it!) and my pussy just starts tightening and throbbing and that feeling comes over my whole body as I have myself a “leftovers” orgasm. That’s the only way I can explain it, it’s leftover tickles and tingles in my pussy that cause an orgasm even when I’m not being touched and it happens whether I want it to our not. My body just gives itself this orgasm. I’ve tried to fight it but I just can’t. Sometimes they are stronger than others but they are orgasms just the same.

There are a few other orgasms I could get into (like squirting) but for now I’ll just mention one more. This one might be cagedmonkey’s favorite. I have one hell of an imagination and I can literally think myself into an orgasm. Just this morning, when hubby got home from work, we were kissing a bit and I happened to grab his sexy little ass at the same time. That kinda made me start to grind my hips toward him. We were standing there and in my head I imagined swirling my hips around as I was filled up with his hard cock and I could feel it in the pit of my stomach first. Then my muscles tightened in my pussy and they started to quiver and I felt a gush as my pussy suddenly got very wet. I could feel the warmth between my legs as I imagined slowly sliding myself up and down on his cock. I imagined squeezing his shaft so tight as I began to orgasm in my pants with no vaginal stimulation whatsoever. Oh geesh, I think I need to go masturbate after writing that!

So maybe I have a talent but I’m not sure I would call it a superpower. 🙂

Aggressive By Nature – Feeling the Force

Yesterday was quite a tease filled day. It started out in the morning with me tucking cagedmonkey in like usual. However, it ended up being much more than your typical tuck in! Before I went up he’d fallen asleep so he woke up to my wet horny pussy being shoved in his face and he immediately went to work servicing me. I let him lick me to a nice orgasm and then I slid down and straddled his stomach. I started kissing him very deep. I grabbed his neck under his chin, pushed his head back and started kissing him much more forcefully. I kissed him so deep and so hard that he gagged.

I have no idea what is going on with me the past few days but I’m in a severely dominant mood. I’m very aggressive and forceful. Cagedmonkey says I start to growl like a predator. That’s kinda how I feel like he’s my prey to be caught and used for my pleasure. I have this overwhelming feeling of wanting to use him so hard and force him to do things to me exactly how I want them done. It’s something that, as I get more comfortable with my level of self control, this aggressiveness progresses into much more.


Yes, that's my tattoo! 🙂

All day yesterday I had randomly been walking up to hubby and grabbing his face and kissing him so hard and deep. I’d grab his crotch, spank his ass as he walked by. I’d been quite clear with my sexual advances.

Last night, before hubby left for work, I had him begging me and whimpering. I decided to take off the Revenge (made him put that on the other day after his little cage free time) and enjoy myself with a little tease and torment. hehe 🙂 I started by simply stroking his rock hard cock to the edge and letting go. I did that over and over while I kind of had him pinned down with my legs. He gets quite squirmy these days when I’m edging him.

So I stroked him to the edge over and over, forced him to suck my big beautiful tits while I was doing it and loved listening to him moan, cuss and whimper each time I’d get him to the edge and leave him dangling there. That’s when I brought out my awesome trick. That really got him going and he started bucking his hips and really begging me to stop. Sometimes I wonder what it feels like when I do it… I guess he’ll have to tell us sometime!

Ohhhhhhh, what’s my trick, right? Hehe see, I even teased you! Well I wish I had a picture or video to show you but basically once I’ve edged him to the point of his cock being super sensitive I cup my hand slightly and place the head of his cock in the middle of my palm. This actually works so awesome with a tiny bit of lube or even precum works. I then move my hand flat, cupped, flat, cupped, etc squeezing with my thumb a bit too to give it that extra ooomph. I keep doing it at a very fast pace and it drives him absolutely crazy. I really have to hold him down then, so if you plan on doing this, tying him down might be a good option. I had a plan to only do it for about 5 mins straight but after seeing him, hearing him and feeling him bucking and squirming under me I just had to keep it up much longer. I kept him like that until the very last minute I could where he would still have time to get back in his cage and head off to work.

He is back in the Jail Bird now but boy oh boy did he have an awfully achy, horny night at work. Especially when I’d text him and tell him how I was rubbing my horny wet pussy, just because I could. *giggle*

Tonight is date night… it’s been awhile… I wonder what kinds of things my aggressive behavior will bring tonight! :)~

Birthday Gift For a Husband in Chastity


Yeah, you know you read that title thinking it was cagedmonkey’s birthday, right? Well it’s not! It’s mine, but, that doesn’t mean I don’t have some special plans for my locked up hubby man. Don’t be mistaken thinking my denied guy is going to get an orgasm because that is just not in the cards today. He WILL still be waiting until his birthday in June for that… or at least that long (perhaps I’ll deny him until Christmas!).

Today, it’s been almost a month since cagedmonkey has touched his own penis. If he has been unlocked he’s been restrained and not allowed to touch. If I have unlocked him, I’ve been the one to remove and replace his cage. He’s dying to stroke himself, let alone just touch himself in general. So my plan for later is to unlock him and use our bondage rope to tie his own hand to his penis so I can pull up on the rope and force him to stroke himself. He really wants to touch himself but I’m going to force him to do it how I want him to. He won’t really have a choice in HOW he gets to touch himself. 🙂

I’m really getting into the bondage rope and I’m going to buy myself more. We even bought a book to learn knots and techniques, but that’s for an entirely different post!

It should be a pretty interesting thing and I’ll be sure to take pictures and share how our little adventures go tonight. I’m really looking forward to his reactions – you should know by now how much of a reaction junkie I am – and sharing it with all of you! 🙂

The Penis Hideaway Continues: In Da Hood

My Lady is getting used to taking charge during the new “no look/no touch” rules she has come up with. She showed her skill last night with a devious little tease that left me wanting to cum so bad!

I was a little overdue for some shaving maintenance, so after the kids went to bed, My Lady went about shaving me. She has gotten much better at shaving me with the cage on, which works well during this new game we are currently playing. After I my balls were nice and smooth, it was time to clean off.

My Lady led me to the bathroom, where she had drawn me a nice warm bath. After I stepped in the tub, she used cuffs and one of my belts to restrain my hands to  the shower rung. Then she put her newest toy on me – a spandex blindfold hood. Unable to reach down or even see, I was ready for my bath. She removed my cage and had me sit down in the bath.


It was a wonderful feeling, both being free of the cage and having the warm water surround my cock. I could feel my hard cock bobbing against the waves. It was a slight tease in and of itself, giving me sensation but no friction. Of course, I needed more, but I wasn’t going to complain.

My Lady then began to bathe me, giving me a literal sponge bath as I sat there. She used the loofa sponge to wet down my chest and back, soaping me up and rinsing me off. Her hands felt so wonderful on me, cleaning and caressing my body. It was relaxing to feel so cared for. This is the best part of being kept: the care that your keeper gives you.

Then the bath turned from relaxation to utter frustration. She kept moving down my body with the sponge, across my stomach until her hands brushed against the tip of my cock. I moaned loudly, and I heard ML giggle in response. She continued toying and teasing with my cock as I struggled to keep my hips still and avoid splashing water all over the bathroom floor. Soon, ML was stroking my cock under the water. My moans echoed off the walls as she drove me closer and closer to cumming. She slowed her pace just short of pushing me over, bringing me back from the edge and pushing me back up once again time after time. There was a moment where, as she got DANGEROUSLY close to making me cum, I was afraid she may give me a ruined orgasm. But she let go of my cock just in time, the waves in the tub acting as her freelance cock teasing agents, holding me on the edge but not giving me enough pleasure to cum.

It is difficult to explain the spectrum of emotions I felt during this. I was excited that My Lady was playing with my cock, grateful for the attention I was getting. But I was also very vulnerable in that position; once it was clear that I had no way of stopping or resisting the teasing ML was giving me, I had no choice but to submit to her. I could only take what she was giving me and wait for the sexual torture to end.

Once ML was finished bathing and teasing me I heard exit the bathroom, leaving me in the tub waiting for my erection to subside. Apparently, my cock had other ideas, as it refused to get soft even when the water began to chill a bit. I heard ML come back in twice to check on me; both times she was not satisfied with how my cock was still hard. Finally – after doing a handful of math equations in my head – my cock started to soften. ML let the water out of the tub and put the Revenge back, caging my teased and desperate cock once again. Only after my cock was safely locked away did she uncuff me and remove the hood.

I’ll admit, I didn’t think this would happen so fast… but I really do miss seeing my cock. Before this, I’ve always been able to watch ML tease my cock; being denied the sight of it seems to make the experience even more intense. I know she has more ways on how to drive me crazy with this idea; she has already told me this morning that she may need to unlock me again later tonight to satisfy some of her needs. Stay tuned….