I Don’t Want You to Touch Your Cock For a While

This morning cagedmonkey and I had a conversation. He was telling me just how horny he was, which I love! I decided it was a good time to keep him abreast (haha I said breast!) of how the next couple months of his denial are going to go. He’s already at around 7 weeks I think (really, I stopped counting such things!). I figured screenshots of it were so much easier than trying to type it all out. So this is how things went – yes, with my stupid phone typos and all!
Haha he’s says a major problem with his horny… He’s so damn cute. 🙂
Yup, that’s a good subby boy, thank me for denying your orgasm. 🙂 of course I didn’t decide that this morning. I worked it all out with myself yesterday and decided last night. Neither of us was feeling well though and he called into work & went to bed at 6pm and I went at 9pm. Oh well, as a few of you, who talk to me off the blog, know I was having a bad day physically yesterday and needed the rest.
Yeah, I guess I’m in one of those let me see how bad he can get moods. Plus, I absolutely get off on him begging. If he gets pissy, I swear, I’ll be bending his ass over and spanking it as red as a baboons.
Haha yeah, yeah, go ahead and laugh at my typo. It’s funny! Just for your info puss=plus. This is completely true though. I feel like pushing him, in the mean time that pushes me and I seriously do not want to get burnt out trying to do too much at once. It’s not an easy job being a wife, mother and keyholder. Being a keyholder certainly does not mean Lock it and Leave it. Maybe there are some out there that do that but it is not fair to anyone trying to enjoy this.
Yeah, baby, you don’t have a choice but I do like to know you’re feelings. Maybe he’ll come here and post how he feels. 🙂 It’s going to be a fantastic two months ahead leading into our ceremony.

Speaking of our upcoming ceremony, we did just have someone ask recently if our ceremony is vanilla or were we adding in a “collaring.” The simple answer to that is yes, it will be a purely vanilla ceremony with some of our family and the members of our church. I suppose this could be a whole blog post on its own so I’ll leave this post to what it actually is.

Hiding the Key… From Me!

I am in a bad bad way super mega crazy horny. Like dripping wet quivering pussy horny. Like attacking cagedmonkey very aggressively any chance I get horny. Like I want to rip off his clothes and cage and throw him down on the bed and fuck him silly horny. (Yes, I know there should be commas in there somewhere but who cares! lol)

Seriously, I’m really horny again and I’m having a really hard time resisting using my key. I know what you’re thinking, I’m the keyholder and I’m in charge, why don’t I just unlock him and use my toy to pleasure myself? Well, honestly, I really do want to try to keep him locked, without erection through the end of September like I planned. I really don’t want to ruin the time he’s been in his Jail Bird already or lose the incredible amount of frustration I have already built up in him.

So to keep this keyholder from doing something she really doesn’t want to do, I had to put my key away in a little box. I am very blessed that I have such a good subby hubby who knows my goal and is willing to help me get past this crazy horny bit. I will say that I am at a point that it is not him or his begging or his whimpering that is making it hard for me… it’s my own self, my need to have him, my desire to feel HIM between my legs. Not a strap on harness, not a fake cock filling up my pussy, that’s not what I want. It isn’t about needing to be fucked because that’s easy enough with the strap on. It’s about feeling the man I love between my legs, looking into his beautiful blue eyes and feeling that connection with him. I want to feel that closeness, that tender, romantic love… without the cold hard steel against my leg.

Ok I need to stop because I’m getting myself kinda crazy again writing this. Anyway, for now, my key is put away and not hanging on a necklace around my neck. It’ll have to stay there until I’ve gotten past these feelings.

Conversations in Chastity: Trusting the Good Boy

cagedmonkey: Your good boy is going to see if he can get back to sleep…. If not,  gonna eat and get dressed, might tiny nap

Lady M: Ok darling boy

cm: Biiiiiiig smile 🙂

Lady M: I love knowing I can leave you with yourself and the instructions and you won’t take advantage of my trust

cm: I’m glad that you can trust me in situations like  this, that bondage isnt necessary…. Instead it’s a tool for you to use when you want to tease and/or frustrate me

Lady M: oh how I love to tease and frustrate you my sweet boy

cm: I always thought it  would be so  hot  to  be so desperate  to cum that I couldnt be trusted in a  situation like this….. Now I realize that I wont ever get that bad off, but that’s a good thing. Being this devoted and  committed  to you is better 😉 Wanting you to have control and not wanting to let you  down  by taking it from u  is better  🙂

Lady M: You’re an amazing subby hubby and I love that you want to submit to my desires… even your orgasms.

I Can’t Take it Being Locked in Chastity 24/7


I couldn’t do it! I was trying to keep cagedmonkey locked 24/7 for a month. A month with no erections, no touching his penis, not feeling me… and ultimately me not feeling him either.

I made it 17 days! Haha it seriously felt like way longer than that. Especially that first moment I took off his cage and saw his cock instantly become erect. Cagedmonkey had no idea I was going to unlock him. I’d actually made the decision earlier today but we didn’t have a chance at alone time until almost 8 pm when the kids went to bed. After tucking them in I took off my necklace where the key hangs. I put it in the palm of my hand and only revealed it to hubby when we were in the middle of making out and dry humping like teenagers. 🙂

Once I got him unlocked, he turned the ring to put the post behind his balls. That helps with it poking me during playtime. Then slowly, very slowly he slid his raging hard cock into my pussy. Stretching me as he slowly filled me up. It wasn’t even a minute before my body reacted. It felt absolutely incredible to feel my pussy tighten around his big fat cock. Squeezing it so tight, my body shaking as I came so hard. The orgasm was so intense and long and I was unable to let out my screams that it ended with a headache. A headache well worth having!

So I’m sure we’ll try the zero time out again but for now I’ll be playing with my toy often until June. I’m still aiming at maybe day being in June – at least! I love feeling how much he wants me, how horny he is for me constantly. So, who knows, maybe I’ll want to keep him there a while! 🙂

Naked Lunch and More: Part 1

I really wanted to post this the other day before we got trashed with the flu but, I was unable to move, let alone post to the blog. So my apologies for going backward here. I’m sure you can tell I prefer to stay pretty current with our play! You’ll have to pardon me if the writing and descriptions aren’t as good as usual. I’m trying to remember as best I can!

This past Saturday both of our kids had recital rehearsal. That meant they would both be gone for 5 hours leaving us in the house alone. That is such an extremely rare thing, I’m sure you can imagine we wanted to take full advantage of our situation.

After I dropped the kids off to rehearsal I stopped and picked up lunch for cagedmonkey and I. He was still naked in bed so when I got back I stripped down to only my panties and brought lunch up to the bedroom. We sat on the bed eating some, bad for us, McDonald’s (mostly) naked together – I don’t think we’ve ever done that – it was fun! We watched an episode of Dexter while we ate and when it was over things started to get a bit frisky. We found a movie on Netflix just for some background noise and started making out. While kissing I rolled cagedmonkey on to his back and straddled him and unlocked and removed his cage. I reached up to the head of our bed where the wrist cuffs to the under-the-bed restraints are and hooked his wrists. I loved seeing his reaction because he didn’t really know that I had planned to do that. I kissed him nice and deep, slid the hood over his head and climbed off the side of the bed. I walked around to the end of the bed where I unhooked the ankle cuffs from the restraint system. That’s when hubby asked what I was doing… I just told him he would see (or would feel as it was).

I climbed up the end of the bed between cagedmonkey legs and pushed up behind his knees. I wrapped the cuffs around his legs just under his knees and clipped them to the wrist cuffs. This forced him to spread himself wide open and present his sexy ass to me. That must have been the time he heard the Velcro from me putting on the strap-on thigh harness. I grabbed the lube from the nightstand, lubed up pearl and slowly pushed into his asshole. I wasn’t rough with him rather a steady paced ass fucking. He was all spread there like a little slut to be used but I certainly didn’t abuse him like I could have.

After a good long time violating his asshole and my thighs starting to burn I unhooked his legs and let them flop down on the bed. I decided to spend some time teasing the living shit out of his cock.

To Be Continued…

Like I said, this was 5 hours without the kids so to find out what happened over the next couple of hours read on in Part 2…

What a Keyholder Wants, a Keyholder Gets

I’m not really one who plans out how things are going to be or even what things are going to happen. I’m more of the go-with-the-flow type person because I’ve found that things are much more enjoyable when we don’t expect or count on certain things. One thing about life that used kill me was getting my hopes up or expecting something and then only getting disappointed because it wasn’t how I imagined, what I pictured or exactly how I wanted it.

One thing chastity had taught, me as a wife and Keyholder, is that nothing is ever set in stone and everyday is a maybe day! I certainly have ideas of how I want things to go, especially a T & D or D/s session but in no way do I plan our expect anything to go in any particular way.

Since our Valentine’s Day romp my goal was to keep cagedmonkey caged completely (not out, no erections, no feeling me) until my birthday in April and denied his orgasm until his birthday in June. Well as you all probably read a couple weeks ago, the caged completely thing was blown out of the water soon after. Hey, what can I say? I love my man’s cock! 🙂 Still denying him orgasm until June was going to be easy, right?

Nothing is ever as easy as we think! Last night was something quite amazing. Hubby and I were spending some wonderful time together snuggling on the couch. We watched a couple shows on Netflix and just laid together holding each other. Cagedmonkey ended up rubbing my shoulders, relaxing me and making me feel so good and loved. One thing led to another and we were kissing and groping each other. It felt incredible to have his body between my legs, above me like that. It was so sexy, such a turn on, to feel his strong arms, his hips and thighs. We kissed and made out like a couple of horny teenagers.

We’re stopped for a break to get a drink and we talked. As were were sitting there talking we got on the subject of how bad we both missed his cock. With it being in the Revenge I don’t even get a chance to play with it like I do in the Jail Bird. Somewhere in our conversation I leaned over, used the key on my necklace and unlocked the lock on the Revenge. I popped the caged off and he started to instantly get hard so I made him quickly remove the ring.

This was something that had been going through my head for a good part of the day. I am a wife and I have a sexual relationship with my husband… but I’m also a Keyholder. Sometimes the heart, the wife part of me, really wants to have that connection, that intimacy with her husband. To feel his body against mine, to feel him slowly slide his thick cock into my tight pussy, to feel him fill me up with his cum.

One of the best things about being a Keyholder, his dominant, is that I’m in charge and what I say goes! Sometimes when the wife part of me wants to take over, I have the choice to let it happen. To feel my man make love to me. Thrusting slowly into me until I feel those very familiar spasms of his cock. Continuing to thrust as I feel his warm cum overflow my pussy. Filling me up and spilling out on to the couch because there was so much!

It may seem like I messed up my plans but really the ideas I have to get to my goals are never plans. Ideas don’t always happen like we think and that’s the best. One thing I did different this time around was I immediately locked hubby back in the Revenge. I did this in hopes of preserving some of that horny he had pent up for three weeks. I certainly want to try to avoid the “low” that happens after orgasm. We will see how this goes, it’s new to us because usually if he’s going to cum, I drain him with multiple orgasms.

So when a Keyholder Wants something, a Keyholder will have it. She is in charge!

IT’S HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I placed our order from Steelworxx and got the email notification that it was on the way. Well ladies and gentlemen, the mailman delivered our package today! Steelworxx sent our package out from Germany on Jan 17th and 8 days later we have received it here in Northeast, USA. I know others have had issues with their packages being caught up in customs but apparently we had no issues with the post what so ever!

Our device came in a plain brown box with no obvious information on it. It was very discreet packaging, which I’m happy about. Especially when you have a kid who likely is the one to answer the door when the mailman asks for a signature. I also thought it was great that Steelworxx sent it with signature confirmation. The device was packed in the box very well and came in a black velvet bag embroidered with the Steelworxx logo. Also included with the device was a brass lock and key set which was unexpected.

I cannot even begin to explain how excited I am to try this on hubby. I’m very eager to put him through a “no lookie, no touchie” thing while being teased and denied. It’s going to be such a psychological mind fuck! I chose to get him the Revenge because it gives an enclosed feeling while still having the tip of the tube semi open for hygiene purposes.


The device itself is very nicely made, not too heavy, smooth and you can really feel the quality. So far I’m very pleased with it. I’m sure hubby can give a better idea of comfort of wear, how getting it on and what maintaining it is like once he’s in it and gets a feel for the device.

I’m really looking forward to this evening! I’ll add a picture of him in the device later when we get a chance to try it on.