Surprise, Surprise!

In case you didn’t know, I’m kind of a control freak so I don’t really like surprises. I like to know what is happening, where we’re going and how we’re getting there. I like to be the one to plan it out all. I’m just not usually capable of handing over that much control without some anxiety.

I do love knowing that cagedmonkey is capable of thinking about me and wants to do something nice for me by taking me out. He’s planned on taking me on a date on tomorrow night but it is a total mystery as to where we’re going. I’m not that anxious about it this time because I know he’s been locked and denied orgasm for 3 weeks and his thoughts are about pleasing me. I know he’s taking me out to do something he knows I’ll enjoy because he’s thinking about me and my enjoyment.

You boys can be very selfish but I’ve noticed it is much less when you are locked and focused on your Lady/Mistress. I’m looking forward to what my sweet boy has planned. Although any precious time we get without the kids is always an amazing time even if we’re just sitting and watching tv. 🙂

Here We Are Again – 3 Weeks Denied Orgasm

The longest we’ve made it in tease and denial is one month in our 14 years together and I just have to ask myself why? Cagedmonkey has been denied orgasm for 3 weeks now. This is the third or fourth time, since we got into this whole chastity thing, where we’ve gotten to the 3-4 week mark. I realized something last night as we were having a little sexy sex time.

Yesterday morning was a particularly mind fucking morning. I just love tucking hubby in and whispering all kinds of crazy, dirty, naughty things in his ear while I grind on him and have an orgasm. It really just drives him completely bonkers. What was worse yesterday morning was that I unlocked him, rubbed my wet pussy on his ass while I held his rock hard erection in my hand against the bed. I did those little teases often throughout the day yesterday, even used his cock a few times and then by last night he’s was highly hair trigger aroused. So much so that he could barely look me in the eye without almost cumming. Let alone moving while his cock was in my pussy.

I could see in his face how truly and completely frustrated he was, it looked almost painful. That’s when I started to notice my Dominant Keyholder feelings going from “haha this is funny” to “oh no my poor baby” and feeling bad and sorry for cagedmonkey. I kept thinking to myself maybe I should just let him cum. That was exactly when I realized THAT is the whole reason we don’t make it past a month. I start to see the real, not funny anymore frustration and my brain automatically wants to switch to “making him feel better” mode.

The best part about this whole chastity thing is that our communication is super fantastic. So last night I needed to have a conversation with hubby about this. When we first started out we had to work together just to get past the first couple days and then weeks but after talking last night we realized we are at a spot where we need to work together again to get over this hurdle.

We talked about what I felt I needed to be ok with pushing him further. Obviously I’m having emotional/psychological issues with it. We came to the conclusion that, not during teasing or denial, but after I really need to hear that he actually likes that I denied him. I need praise and encouragement to know that I’m not really hurting him or doing something that will cause him to resent me or have anger toward me. I know I have some abandonment issues so that helps when we are trying to figure out what I need. I need to know that deep down he IS enjoying our play and what I put him through (or at least loves to hate it and wants to not want it haha) and that I’m not going to push him away and make him leave me. Yes, to the “normals” that might sound crazy but buried somewhere in my brain that is the root of my loss of confidence.

I’m just glad we can talk and work these things out to make our game the most fun it can be. Communication is key in any relationship but even more so in chastity, tease and denial our any kinky relationship.

Back In the Horny

My Lady and I have been fighting off a very severe cold/flu for almost a week now, but things are finally starting to turn the corner towards healthy. Finally! Perfect timing, too, since ML’s cycle is just about finishing up as well. What does this mean? It means that we are back to being the crazy horny fucking perverts that we have come to be!

Tonight after I put the kids to bed upstairs, My Lady and I shared a wonderful shower together. She soaped up my back (yum!) and I dutifully soaped up her entire body (double yum!). It was nice to hold her close to me and kiss her under the warm water, especially with winter hanging out just a little too long around here. I even washed ML’s hair, giving her a nice shampoo and conditioner treatment. I couldn’t resist giving her hair a slight playful pull as I massaged the conditioner in; this led to her bending over just the tiniest bit, and shortly after I slid a finger inside her nicely cleaned asshole. She moaned as I softly thrusted in and out; ML sounds so sexy when she moans in the shower.  🙂

When we were out of the shower, her naked body was too much for me to resist. I began kissing her soft skin, moving my way down until I was on my knees in front of her. I began licking her clit and My Lady wasted no time in pushing me down on the floor and straddling my face, shoving her pussy down onto my mouth. I greedily licked her pussy, glad to finally be able to taste My Lady’s juices once again. She pulled my hands up to her tits, making me squeeze them as she came all over my face. Both of us were smiling as I picked myself up off of the floor; we’ve BOTH been missing this so badly!!!

Before I left for work, we once again took a moment to get a little frisky (kissing, rubbing My Lady’s clit, making her cum standing next to me as I held her close). Taking that moment started pushing me into “gonna be late” territory, so I asked ML if she would help get my dinner together. We both went to the kitchen; I went to the cupboard for snacks and she went to the fridge for the leftovers set aside for me. I turned around and saw her amazing, jaw-droppingly perfect, round, naked ass as she was bent over looking in the fridge. On instinct, I dropped to my knees behind her and shoved my tongue into her asshole.

Oh God, the sounds she made were just fucking OOOOOOH! She was breathing very heavy, and she pushed her ass back into my face, wanting more of my tongue. I stood up and saw her, grasping the door handle of the fridge, shuddering because she was so turned on. I couldn’t possibly just let it end there, could I? Of course not!

I pushed her down to bend her over just a little more, rubbed her beautiful ass with my hand, and gave her a nice hard spank on her right ass cheek. My Lady gasped and moaned, wriggling her ass back and forth. I spanked her again, and she moaned even louder. Then, My Lady started ordering me, “Spank me again, harder.” And I did, each time giving her a harder slap and she would moan even louder after each one. Then I slid a finger inside her pussy, spanking her ass as I thrusted deep inside her. Her legs began to tremble and her moans crept closer to becoming screams of pleasure/pain.

I could tell she was on the verge of another orgasm. I leaned over and whispered into her ear, “You know I’m going to spank you HARD right when you cum, right?” All My Lady could do was nod as her orgasm rushed towards her. I felt her body stiffen and her moans of impending orgasm began. At the moment I could feel her passion reach it’s highest point, I shoved my finger as deep as I could and gave her the hardest slap possible. My Lady arched her back and let out a loud, passionate moan; I could feel her pussy clenching hard on my finger. She came hard! It must have been triggered by the spank on her ass, but I could tell it was very intense. And DAMN was her ass so red when I was finished with her.  🙂

It was so nice to have this time with My Lady, finally after so much time away from her. The horny definitely has come back for both of us, and I’m sure ML is going to use me to satisfy herself as much as possible to make up for the week we missed. I, on the other hand, will be waiting a much longer time for my satisfaction….

Sick Keyholder – Anxiety & Regaining Confidence

Being sick for this long has really taken a toll on this Keyholder. I haven’t had that physical connection with cagedmonkey since Saturday. I mean we’ve tried but how long can you actually kiss with a stuffy nose before gasping for air? We’ve tried to be touchy feely and while that feels good I’m dealing with a tummy getting nauseous at the same time. My nose is all sore from blowing it constantly and my lips are all chapped. It’s really sexy, I tell ya.

I feel like my confidence has taken a hit in all of this as well. Usually, daily, I’m seeing or feeling a reaction to my aggression/dominance but since we’ve been sick there really hasn’t been any. We’ve haven’t felt like teasing really or anything like that in the past few days either.

Last night I was feeling some pretty yucky anxiety. Cagedmonkey, being sick, has been home from work more nights this week than normal. I usually have a little trouble on his first night back to work after being off, anyway, but last night got me particularly hard. I guess I should have prepared myself better for him going but I didn’t. So yeah, I had him get on his knees in front of me and hold me while I told him I was having a hard time. Cagedmonkey knows me very well after all these years and knows what I need to help me through.

Maybe this all sounds lame to some and not very becoming of a big bad ass Keyholder but it’s reality. I’m a little nutty and insecure sometimes and I’m just glad my subby hubby loves me and cares enough to give me what I need to push through and regain my composure and confidence.

Ya see, all that wonderful love he showed last night really helped when he got home from work this morning. I went up to tuck him in and unlocked his cage to release the sexiness within. He’s still not allowed to touch himself until my birthday, in a week and a half, so I put him in the bondage mittens. I had him get on his side and I spooned him and gave him quite the mind fucking while stroking his cock. Telling him all the things I could force him to do. Making him watch as I was fondling his cock and stroking him, something he hasn’t done in 16 days. I just love feeling that big thick hard cock in my hand. I had him so extremely turned on that he gushed precum onto my hand. I really enjoy getting him to that point.

One of the things that really got a good reaction out of him was when I told him how I could spoon him while wearing the strap-on. I explained in a sexy whisper how I could hold his cock in my hand and the only way he would be stroked was if he would push back against me. He would basically have to penetrate and violate himself to get any pleasure for his cock. What a dilemma! Such a humiliating thing to do just to feel that stroke on his shaft!

Hehe that really got him breathing heavy and moaning slightly. He even started to buck against me a bit too. I really think he liked the idea of being forced to do something he hated if he wanted any pleasure.

Such fun in teasing the mind. I’m also happy to feel myself getting back into the groove, so to speak.

Naked Lunch and More: Part 2

Ok to continue on from what happened in part 1 of our 5 hours at home alone…

I decided it was time to give cagedmonkey’s cock a good long teasing. What a great time for it too since he was all tied up and hooded. I edged him for quite awhile, stroking him over and over, stopping just before he could get any pleasure. Then it was time to see what my wand could do. I vibrated various places on his cock and balls and at different speeds just seeing what reactions I would get. I think I spent a good half hour just testing out what spots did what. I just loved watching him squirm and moan.
Something I’ve wanted to try for some time was tying the vibrator to cagedmonkey’s balls and to leave him there to endure. So I went to our little box of tricks and got the bondage rope. I tied the wand to his balls and wrapped it around him and then the door knob. It was an interesting setup and made it nice and easy to play with him from the door way. After I got him tied up, I put in the porn dvd and got it to a nice spot where all he could hear was fucking. I whispered to him through the hood to enjoy and I would be back… I was going to take a shower. 🙂
He was left that way for about a half hour while I went downstairs. I was totally loving hearing him whimper and moan upstairs, there was no way I could take a shower. I got myself some milk and cookies and enjoyed listening to him. When I thought he’d had enough I went up and untied him, let him loose and gave him some loving aftercare. That’s actually one of my favorite parts, holding his head on my chest, making him feel good. Letting him know everything is ok, how proud I am of him for taking what I put him through. I love taking care of my subby hubby.